"When you smile I melt inside"

07:28 pm - engagement!

My brother is engaged!!! Woo hoo!! Wedding next year for sure- not sure which month though..I think they're thinking about sept. or oct. :)
This means I finally will have a sister! Something I've always dreamed of! hahah. My bro's gf's name is Tracy and she's from St. Joseph which is downstate somewhere...She is 24 and is in vet school at state! That's where my brother met her.....She's seriously one of the nicest people I know! :)

12:57 am - Tanning and nursing

I made a pledge to myself to not tan anymore in my life. Not that I'm a tan-a-holic or anything. Last winter I did not go tanning once. This summer I layed out any day I could. Why? Because I thought that I looked better with a tan, and I also thought it helped with my acne. Isn't that why every girl tans? Well, anyway, I am now declaring I am not going to tan anymore. I don't care if I look pasty white. It will look a whole lot better than a wrinkley, alligator face. Mike told me that tanning makes acne worse anywase...I don't even care to look it up because guess what? I'm not going to tan! yay.

Update: I had my first hospital clinic last wednesday! Scary, but interesting. I got to pull out an I.V, and set up an I.V antibiotic solution. (It's not in the LPN's scope of practice to actually start an I.V, not that i'm complaining or anything...I just continue to watch nurses struggle with putting those things in all the time I don't even care to learn). So yeah...We're on the 2nd floor in the Med-Surg unit for 6 weeks, and we have 4 off site locations- operating room, emergency room, ambulatory, and respiratory therapy. Should be a busy semester.

Current Mood: okay

10:31 pm

gimme a break! gimme a break! break me offa piece of that kit kat bar!!!!

Current Mood: contemplative

10:22 pm

i got interviewed by a federal investigator yesterday! it was sawweeet! i've been telling everyone....hahah

other than that, life's been great. the new menards opened, thank GOD! for the past few weeks i've been working 26 hrs err week. which is nuts with school!! i go to school 22 hours a week, and not to mention having h/w on top of that!

what else is new...i hit a deer the other day on chaison rd!! i was bawling b/c i love deer! and for a split second i thought of chasing after it b/c i wanted to see if it was okay! haha i'm not joking.... it was rough...

i'm looking forward for school to be DONE and i start clinics at bishop noa right after school gets out...i'm soo excited :)

09:47 pm - very random post

hello friends.

just wanted to let you all know i'm ALIVE.

haha if you didn't know....

anywho....i am bored....(never happens to me and i'm sure it doesn't happen to you too often)

just want to let you know i miss you all and hope everyones having good college experiences.

study hard...it will all be worth it in the long run!

Current Mood: drunk

05:49 pm - life is good :)

Passed all my finals baby yeah! Got a B+ overall in pharm, an A in abnormal psych, my other random classes (first aid and stress management...obviously As) and a C+ overall in Anatomy and Phys. which i don't care because only 50% of the class passes... woo!
Yesterday went to ferdinands w/ mary and nicole which was pretty sweet because i haven't hung out with marg in like 5 years! It was fun :)
It was a little random there because it was basically just stephens friends from esky, and us 3.....so we kind of just talked amoungst ourselves (because we're not going to have full on conversations w/ people we just met, obviously) AND because the table is like 20 feet long and you have to scream to talk to someone...and stephen yells over to us, SOOO because you guys are just talking to yourSELVES.....and we all looked at eachother and kind of faked laughed...haha it was funny... yeah soooooooo it's so awesome being on break i just love it :) life is good i can't complain..the only bad thing is that i'm practically broke (like everyone else) and i still have to buy mike a christmas present...i have to go cheap on him this year.
Saturday me and nicole are going to a hockey game at northern! (vs. mich. tech) i'm soo pumped!
and then mike comes home friday? i think....

I'm pumped to see everyone at Fnands on tuesday :)
(very good idea ross's by the way)!

Current Mood: cheerful

06:23 pm - mainly school info.

I bought the new taylor swift c.d at walmart yesterday and it's soo worth the $15!

Life has been dece......considering it is a daily routine...like...way more routine than h.s and that's sad... Anatomy & Phys is a killer.... but i'm pulling through with about an 80%....only 35/80 people in my class are passing, it's scary....I feel really bad because alot of them are going to get kicked out of their full time position in the nursing program...it's really competitive let me tell you.
Okay so I found out that we have to give eachother SPONGE BATHS!!! it's completely disgusting if you ask me....give me an old person, and i'll do it but....come on bathing a classmate....sick............to make matters worse this girl who i don't even know all that wellasked me to be her partner and i was like umm...it's like a semester away jeeshe lady.....so me and steph are going to be "bath buddies" i guess...oh boy hahahah...
The guys have to give eachother baths too which is pretty funny......
Last week I woke up in the middle of the night and threw up 6 times on my bedroom floor...and finally thought it would be a smart idea to move to the bathroom and proceeded on......... Went to the doc's and supposively I had strep throat? so that was news to me...didn't know you threw up when you had strep......
I had to choose whether i'll be working at christian park this summer or bishop noa for clinics.....I choose bishop b/c my grandma went to christian park and there were a lottttttt of crazies....bishop just has old people i guess....and also i wanna walk around w/ the nuns :) hahah
We had to sign this contract thing and we get teal srubs instead of white! so that should be nice.....

Menards is pissing me off.....i accepted a check that was like $50 under what is was supposed to be made out for and i almost got suspension for a week because of it....I know that it is my fault and menards is just doing their job but I can't help but be pissed at the retard who wrote the check out wrong too.... It's like the 1 time i don't check the check.....i get in trouble.... so if it happens again i guess i get a week off of work!

I suppose I better study because that was my plan for the day and guess what, i haven't :)

Can't wait to see people over thanksgiving break it's going to go by fast!

Current Mood: drained

09:27 pm

kristen bialik where is your livejournal you said you'd post on friday. i wait for it every day. hahah

Current Mood: rushed

11:21 pm - life thus far

Hello livejournal world

I've decided to post about my life every now and then later so I can look back on stuff (I hate writing)

Lives all that and a bucket of roses (okay so not THAT great, but could be alot worse) hahah

Schools been dece.... my anatomy and phys class has a 50 percent failing rate (no i'm not lying) And if you're wondering, it's not b/c it's bay and people are stupid...It's because it's hard....real hard....
So far I've gotten a 78%, 94%, and I just bombed my last exam w/ a 60%..but hey it's all good...I'll do better on the next one and you can throw out your worst exam... If you can't believe it, it's true...someone actually got a 4% on one of the exams..i don't know what went on there. My pharmocology class is hard, but I got a 90% on my first exam :) (My teacher is married to mr. bjork's brother!) You have to dedicate a ton of time to that class b/c it's only ONE hour a week!!!! and it's worth 1 credit...so retarded.... My first aid class was cool...I'm a certified life saver now haha....My stress management class is over on monday...pretty sweet class...we did tai chi and walked on a labyrinth and stuff.... my abnormal psych class is awesome I love it...
The teacher is freaking awesome....(never liked any of my teachers through school except mr. bjork, and now i have one more i can add to the list) so yeah...that's school.....Oh....Did I mention that we have to give baths TO EACHOTHER next semester...yeah.....talk about sick....give me an old person and I'll do it but no I do not want to give a BATH to a CLASSMATE. sick...... and theres guys in our class....

Menards is menards....theres this girl who's now pregnant and she's the sweetest girl in the world but not very well of financially.....i feels super bad...and now she's fired......I'm going to buy her a cute baby outfit in febuary when he/she's born...she wants a girl and will name her madison.

I miss my friends and how simple life used to be..........

That's my life in a nutshell

My doggy is what's keeping me going :)

more to come later

Current Mood: calm

10:54 pm - Kyle

So a couple days ago, I was walking into my Monday night class..I got there about 10 minutes early which is pretty rare..I mostly stumble in 5 minutes after I'm supposed to be there. There was a class going on, so everyone was just kind of waiting to get in, and I noticed that people were...not as talkative as usual...So I walk into the classroom, and my mind is only on one thing..."I need to open my book and cram as much stuff on suicide that I can before the test." So I'm sitting there scanning my text, unaware of my surroundings.. I just shoved my bookbag onto the seat right next to me. I noticed a bouquet of flowers resembling yellow daisies or something with a blue ribbon tied around them, but I guess it didn't even cross my mind...I just moved them away so I could set my stuff on the desk until the person I sit next to walked in. I was kind of wondering where he was because I was looking forward to talking to him. That's when our instructor informed us that Kyle Jackson (the kid who sits right next to me) died last Thursday.
I was shocked. All I could do was just stare at our teacher and listen to what he had to say. I watched the faces of every person in our class. You could see the look of shock on every kids face. Being a phsycotherapist for 25 + years, our teacher was very supportive of our feelings...We talked about it all for about an hour...About Kyle's death, and death in general. You see, the Monday before he died, (4 days before he passed away) he wasn't acting like himself in class... The first thing he did when he came in was ask the teacher if he could talk to him in private...Then he turned to me and was talking about how much stress he was going through and how he got in an accident because of a seizure he had....He was upset because his mom told him that he had insurance on his car, and he found out that he didn't have insurance after all.....Time after time he kept whispering to me that he was scared...that his seizures were freaking him out, and that he just hoped that they would go away..... I kept reasurring him that everything would probably get better, and the last thing I said to him was "well it can only get better right kyle?" and he responded with "yeah i sure hope so"....... That was at the end of class...I forgot to mention that in the middle of class, he kept blurting things out without raising his hand.....everyone was getting annoyed and they kept giving him mean glares and whatnot..... he said to me that his a.d.d was acting up and that he hopes people aren't getting mad at him....I told him that he was fine but to be a little quieter.. the teacher even kind of lashed out at him and said "could you stop disrupting our class, I know this isn't how you normally are kyle".....I felt bad because he asked me if i wanted the rest of his gatorade (there was about less than 1/4 left) knowing me i kinda just started laughing and was like ummm no thanks....then me and steff (shultz) started cracking up....... So anywase while we were talking about kyles death....our teacher asked us if we had any thoughts or "bubbles" about what was going on.......People admitted that they felt like assholes for thinking that kyle was acting ridiculous during class and that they thought he was on drugs...... While really, the reason he was acting disruptive was because he was on a medicine for epilepsy, and they SWITCHED him to a different medicine for epilespy.....while.........the underlying reason for the cuase of his death was simply because of that. Because of the ignorant doctor or whoever he was that switched his freaking medicine on him PROBABLY without reconginzing that the medicine that they were putting him on had really bad effects if combined w/ other medicines....................... I spoke up during class because I wanted to share a few things me and kyle talked about...i got about 10 words in and i literally started sobbing in front of everyone....I remember telling the teacher I was "sorry" for crying and he simply said...Class, does she honestly have to feel sorry about this? ...shultz started crying to which made me feel less bad......I hardly knew the kid, but I got to know him quite a bit through our short talks....It's just that one minute your talking to someone, and the next day they're out of your life...... Kyle was honestly one of the nicest kids i've ever met..... I still feel bad because he asked me to hang out during the week and I told him I couldn't because I had a boyfriend.....He didn't take it to heart but I still feel bad and I keep thinking about it....I was proud of Kyle...he shared some private things in class i won't say,,but he was going to school to become a drug therapist because he wanted to help people in that way. (he wasn't a drug user just so you know)

Treat people in your life with respect. Never judge people..... such as in our class's case...most of us judged kyle....some thought he was on drugs, but in reality his medicine was playing games with him..... You may look at  a person and think they're acting like a freak, but in reality, that person may be schizophrenic! They are NOT crazy....they have shitzophrenia.....it's a disorder you can't control........ Think about things and be kind to everyone....They deserve it.... Everyone deserves respect........

R.I.P Kyle. You will sadly be missed....................

12:15 am

 poop.

Current Mood: contemplative

09:05 pm - advice?

alright guys so i need advice...

i recieved my grades like a week or so ago, and i was keeping track of my chem grade and i'm PRETTY sure that i should have recieved a half a grade better than i did...(i got a b, i think i should have gotten a b+)..i mean i was averaging like an 84-86 before the exam and i'm super super sure that i got at least an A- on the exam.... also i just talked to one of my friends and he got a C...and he seriously failed like all his exams........so the thing is, i have e-mailed my teacher TWICE already, asking if he could let me know what i got on my exam because they only post our FINAL grades....and just to make sure he checks my grades again, and i wanted to konw if there was a curve...etc....anyway point is he never replied and it's been like 2 weeks now.....
normally i wouldn't care but this is one of the 4 classes that determines my grade point for the nursing program entrance....
i just can't freaking get a hold of my teacher, and i'm pretty sure he's not going to ever respond because he's from like the middle of nowwhere,he's like 67, and he told us that he's not good w/ computers (hint hint, that he doesn't ever check his mail)
so what do you think i should do?? i'm getting really pissed..


any who, hope ya'll are enjoying summer.....my life is basically like a routine seeing as i've been working 30 hrs. + ...........

Current Mood: anxious

04:27 am

 Well I just broke a new record for myself... 4:30 is most definitely the latest I've ever stayed up working on homework.. 
Just thought I'd share this comment with you all, hah, hah.............

Current Mood: restless

01:27 am

Ryan is rotating and revolving.

Current Mood: loopy

09:45 pm - i'm going a little crazy.

 I really

really

really

really

really

really

neeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeed to get out of this town.

a DAY would do me good.

just one freaking day.

it feels like i've been stuck in a bubble for sooo long.
seriously. that describes everything perfectly lately.

I need to be around my friendsssssss...ahhhh

12:40 am - i need to learn how to sleep again.

the best feeling in the world is feeling sure of yourself :)

oh happy day.

anywho, i had a really good weekend :) 
ann arbor is not what i thought it would be like at all..(in a good way)..mike's room reminded me of a dirty campground bathroom though.. haha.. 
i really like it down there though!

now it's back to reality :(
and this is the 1st time i've felt like a slacker b/c i haven't done any homework in like 4 days.. oh well!

oh yeah and I got a new puppy :) she's ADORABLE, and i've been basically dedicating my life to her....(i woke up at 6 a.m this morning to play/sleep w/ her)...

and if you don't know..she's a goldendoodle :)

Current Mood: tired

09:43 pm

 I thought Bay was doing me good, until I recently found out I have a chem teacher who can't teach.
The organic chem teacher (the hippie chick who lives by mary and cathy) felt bad for me and even told me i can ask her for help anytime. haha. after all, SHE was the one who was supposed to freaking teach human chem this semester but nooooo.....

It's gonna be a long 10 weeks....

03:00 am - True Happiness <3

Tonight made me really happy :)
I just felt like I was my normal happy self and I want to stay like that..

I hung out w/ nicole kelsy shannon and michelle, it was really fun...I seriously haven't laughed that hard and that long in a veryyyyy long time.

Don't you just love friends :)

Anyway I should probably get to bed because it's 3:00...but when I came home I wasn't at all tired, so yeah...

Hmmm bball game tmr w/ the tamster yay for GHS girls basketball..always exciting..haha :)


Oh yeah last night I applied to Ferris and Northern...cost me $30 damnit :p

No school for another week :)



 

Current Mood: tired

11:09 pm - yee-haw

Everyone is breaking up these days!

(Ladies and gents,,,Erik is currently single!!- for the 1st time in 5 years)

06:45 pm - Snowboarding?

 I took a 2 1/2 hour nap today..And I had the sweetest dream ever..I was snowboarding with a huge group of people ( I have no clue who they even were), and I was having a blast!! I have no idea where this dream came from, because I basically never think about snowboarding, and winter..stuff like that...Maybe it's a sign saying that I should get my butt into gear this winter and snowboard alot like I used to w/ Vicky...hahah come to think of it...Me and her went like EVERY night ..and we always had a blast

Current Mood: calm